ms.choo

2011-06-28T02:15:00.003+08:00

ROAR! and my anger doesnt go off until the problem is settled. @$*WY()@!(!#%RI#

i've decided to work at an ice cream shop!
yes...its something i believe i will love.
best thing is ice cream makes ppl happy-ier!

2011-06-20T22:59:00.002+08:00

my new idol - seulong <3

would you rather a sportsman or musician as the other half?

2011-04-06T23:45:00.002+08:00

the world is changing every second.

it seems as though sanity is depleting as well.

as much as i tell myself to appreciate life and not take wat i have for granted,

the more i hurt the most precious people in my life

and harm myself (not literally but slowly)

But,

no matter wat, i am who i am.

accept it or just hate me.

i have no comments or neither do i love myself as much as before anymore.

2011-03-28T05:02:00.002+08:00

1st time being a sister for a wedding! so tiring yet fun!
it feels so sweet yet scary to get married. looking at the groom and bride make me feel damn blessed. at the same time i can feel the happiness in them.
i wonder if i would get that chance 1 day or to even find/meet the correct person for me.

the brothers are damn fun too!
170km/hr speed and we just go vroom vroom~
they also keep forcing drinks to my table together with the bosses. wah. its crazy how fast people can get tomatofied or even drunk! HAHHA!
red wine, cordon bleu, champagne and asahi = not good.

Made a wrong turn, once or twice.
Dug my way out, blood and fire.
Bad decisions, that's alright.
Welcome to my silly life.

i realised its really good to know my own limits.
be it liquor tolerance, forfeit tolerance, etc.
control how much is acceptable and lower chance of regrets after that=)

2011-03-16T03:41:00.001+08:00

Be myself, be happy. =)

My friend

2011-03-09T04:46:00.008+08:00

Dear Marcus,

Its been 2 years since i know you!

I hate you for being my favourite freshie!

I hate you for making me your favourite GL!  

I hate you for being so retarded!

I hate you for treating me so awesomely nice!  

I hate you for making my day (for a lot of times)! *esp the bush incident!*

I hate you for thinking that i'm ridiculously SEXY!  

I hate you for missing me so freaking much!  

I hate you for putting a smile on my face easily!  

I hate you for not judging me regardless of what you heard of me!  

I hate you for making yourself my 避风港!

I hate you for caring so much about me even though you wasn't in that period of my life!

I hate you for calling me at 1,2am and talked for 3hours on the phone!  

(it was really a joke when you fake-sleep when your mum came in!)  

I hate you for staying up for me and telling me all about our lives!  

I hate you for willing to supper with me at 4am and lending me your flora-scent jacket!

I hate you for understanding me till you can read me like a book sometimes!

I hate you for helping me with my studies when you're already so busy with your's!

I hate you for treating me like your sleeping pills!

I hate you for being in my life and allowing me to be in your life!

I hate you for making my life so fun!  

I hate you for becoming my live-nearby-friend soon!

I hate you for being my listening ear and im so thankful for this!

I hate you for naming me your everything!

I hate you for making me feel comfortable to tell you everything under the sky!  

I hate you for your trust, truthfulness, honesty, patience and meticulousness!  

I hate you for being there for me forever, 不离不弃！  

I hate that I love you so much as a friend!  

I hate that i'm lying that I hate you!  

Signing off, 
Shi Hua

2011-02-24T17:54:00.000+08:00

EH SERIOUSLY AH!

what to do next?!

>:(

if given one wish in my life, i wish to be happy

2011-02-18T00:59:00.003+08:00

when everything is so masked, including myself

ever feel that the sky is getting greyer?
the air is getting thinner?
gravity sucking you into the core?

or

being thrown into the waters with an anchor hanging on the neck when alr handicapped?
rubbing wasabi on your eyes when alr sore?
stabbing at the same spot of your skin when alr wounded?

coz thats how today is to me
fml

2011-02-13T19:51:00.001+08:00

How did we ever come to this?
I never thought you'd be
Someone I'd have to miss
And there I was,
Caught in your game.
Needing answers
That never came
So we took a chance
You said you were strong
Strong enough
But you were wrong

And now I'm Deafened by your silence
blinded by the tears
if you're looking for forgiveness
you won't find that here
cause you lied your way to heartbreak
and now its all too clear
that you will never be....

Look at her
she won't ever compare
you can say you're sorry
but I still don't care
was she worth this mess
was she worth this pain
you can say it's her fault
but you're both to blame

Looking back it was all so easy
I hope you know you're my last mistake
Don't come around and say you need me
I won't stay

Now I know that you were so deceiving
was it fun for you to walk away
I hope you liked it
cause she's so damn easy
you won't change

舍不得, missing

2011-01-30T00:22:00.003+08:00

office, yuen, jacelyn, clarence, xin, my table, cola, michael, yan, linus, menchie, frankie, cynthia, jean, da ge men, etc.. ok la~ nelson too! (although i was quite irritated at the beginning but the last month was good!)
all of them really created a beautiful memory for me to take away!

not to forget, CHAI SHU YI! my comrade who fought this battle with me till the very end!
she also taught me that life can be simple and fun, its just how you choose to live it.
LOVE YOU!

Thanks all the other interns - Shelly, Isaac, Sophia, SiangChong + SAM!
Youngsters of vox! we must stay in contact man!=)

and lastly, WELCOME BACK MY BEST FRIEND THAT WILL NEVER END, CHIU JIE!

Now that school is starting, portfolio dueing, research paper to rush together with CNY, valentines is around the corner as well and all the BSC events BLAST this month and lastly, the super annoying NAPHA!=(

but im looking forward with positivity! with my beloved friends with me! (you noe who you are) JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!

counting down

2011-01-24T16:09:00.000+08:00

2011-01-15T02:21:00.003+08:00

i love the water, i love the breeze, i love the sun,
i love the sky, i love the stars,
i love the nature, i love freedom,
i love my friends, i love my family,
i love to have fun, i love to love,
I loved you

one in a lifetime

2011-01-04T13:55:00.002+08:00

Do you ever feel, like a plastic bag?
all the time. but i believe in karma.

As long as i get my job done, i'll be good.
those who are all out to bring people down, good luck.

Life has been bad for the past few months.
And it made me start thinking for my very own future.
What am i going to be? Who i am? What i truly enjoy doing and willing to do for the rest of my life?

Im a freaking lost sheep, without directions, without goals without an ambition. Sucks.

If only life was as simple as when i was young.
can i be forever young?

a new year started with a old story.. isit a good or bad thing?

2010-12-05T21:05:00.002+08:00

Fairytales do not come true in reality,
only dreams.

2010-10-05T01:36:00.003+08:00

In my life,
there are many chances but its up to my choices
YOU chose to be you, not ME

2010-10-02T00:50:00.003+08:00

Thanks for emphasizing that i made the perfect choice
It was indeed a learning experience i brought upon myself
I love my life now even more
I wish my happiness is air-borne, so it will spread to my loved ones around me!

Forever love

2010-09-28T02:57:00.002+08:00

it actually felt like unleashing a heavy load
i believe i made the right choice

I just love those who are really there for me (you noe who u are!)
and would never ever hurt me intentionally,
treat me well with their true heart
and 无条件 kind of love.

this is what i have that no one else can steal, snatch, buy, take away from me.

As long as i am feeling good and clear conscience
good things would come naturally
so do happiness.

2010-09-03T07:11:00.006+08:00

my orh bak kak is disappearing!=)

keep on recollecting my past recently.

31 Aug

going back to secondary school
(i think for the last time) for teacher's day to see
Mr Lim, Mrs Ng, Mr Chan (who slimmed down so much), Mdm Chia, Mr Chang, Mr Sim and so on.
Its time to move on/ let go i guess.
Seems like only Sabrina and me from our batch went back. =)

1 Sept

Coach is flying to Paris for 2 years.
Almost cried lor. but coz we were joking and keeping the atmosphere happy, the teardrop didnt flow down.
Thinking back 3+ years ago, we cried so much tgt. all the hard times we pulled through tgt as a team. =)
Take care my one and only COACH!
when u come back we MUST gather again.
then u can see how much i grew again! =)

What i have been doing?

dun tell me its gonna be a de javu.
if it is, please convince me that you wun break it again? or not just leave me alone.
coz i realised that i thought i was ready but im not.
my nocturnal life is definitely harming my body.
i can feel it coming alr.
anyway, its the last time we are gonna study tgt for an exam.
lookin back, its been really weird how we managed to struggle through.
but i really found passion in studying only when im with u guys.
<3>

2010-08-29T21:26:00.003+08:00

guess wat?
the more u want and force things to go your way,
the more upset and miserable u gets.

so im gonna nature takes its course.
and do NOTHING if possible.

im gonna be a happy person soon!

no more secret postings, at least not for u

2010-08-25T17:38:00.003+08:00

I love my family and friends so much that nothing else matters.
who needs anything else when u have the most priceless gifts on earth?
and u are not worth to be in the list. im sorry
i'd rather live in self-denial than to wake up knowing i was never needed or impt to you.

life of a scapegoat

2010-08-23T22:50:00.004+08:00

its been sometime i walked in the rain
i like it as no one noes and can see the tears
but its giving me slight fever and coldness =(

facebooks and twitters are no longer a place to say "what's on your mind" or "what's happening"
i need to source for some place where i can really be away from where i am now.

SERIOUSLY!
i hate attitude problem people.
taking everything for granted in life.
not thankful for what is there for them
TSK!

u good mood then treat me well,
bad mood then treat me like a trash bin,
and be it i good or bad mood i haf to go along with YOUR freaking mood.
GO REFLECT ON YOURSELF.

im always there for you but since when are u there for me?

2010-08-22T01:46:00.003+08:00

numb of life

numb of emotions

numb of you
sick of your nonsense

2010-08-19T00:11:00.002+08:00

why do people fear death.
its because they have something they cannot let go in life.
be it someone they love or somethings undone

imagine,
if u have no family, no friends, no one u noe in the whole world.
would u be afraid if u were to just die one day?
i must have went mad.
what's my freaking problem!!

2010-08-16T01:10:00.002+08:00

i always knew, u were a badboy.

사랑보단 호기심뿐

You didn’t fix that terrible habit of seeing people behind my back?

just to let u noe, it hurts me too (not sure if u are even hurt though).

u once said "i'm the girl who can make the happy-go-lucky u sad."

maybe letting u go will make u a happy boy without any sadness..

2010-08-13T00:40:00.003+08:00

为什么只和你能聊一整夜为什么才道别就又想再见面
在朋友里面就数你最特别总让我觉得很亲很贴
为什么你在意谁陪我逛街为什么你担心谁对我放电
你说你对我比别人多一些却又不说是多哪一些

友达以上恋人未满甜蜜心烦愉悦混乱
我们以后会变怎样我迫不及待想知道答案

再靠近一点点就让你牵手再勇敢一点点我就跟你走
你还等什么时间已经不多再下去只好只做朋友
再向前一点点我就会点头再冲动一点点我就不闪躲
不过三个字别犹豫这么久只要你说出口你就能拥有我
i always run away from you, thinking that you would follow after me. but when i turn around, i realize you're not there anymore.
did i lose u or u lose me?

2010-08-10T00:37:00.003+08:00

MY CUTE NAILS SAYS HI TO EVERYONE!
holiday is here and i wanna make full use of it!
a little part in me hopes that u will really change for the better. but the other huge part says its hopeless.

2010-08-06T02:49:00.003+08:00

YAY YA Y YAY!
im back!=)
我感觉我好了！
conclusion: keep your conscience clear, everything will be fine=)

2010-08-05T00:00:00.002+08:00

taiwanese or korean drama ending?

just when i realised that my heart is not with me, i have to find it back. and to get it back, i have to dig it out from another person. hope it doesnt hurt him coz he hurt mine when mine was with him. reality is cruel. only when u lose it then u realise how much u neglected and not cherish it.

2010-08-04T03:03:00.003+08:00

希望，渴望，失望，绝望。
dun let me reach that stage please.

from wat i can sense that you are hinting me and the way u can react as though nth happened, it seems like i have made the right choice.
if deep down you noe u cant change for the better, dun fight for this "love", disappointed is inevitable. but wat's worse is that im more disappointed in myself than in you
trying not to let go by giving u numerous "last chances" but u NEVER cherished them.

2010-08-03T03:04:00.002+08:00

我们之间的困难　在她出现之前就有了
虽然我愤怒但是我明白的　

she's not the prob between us. she's is just a catalyst that proved our problem

2010-08-02T17:02:00.000+08:00

maybe she suits u better.
or maybe i am the 第三者 now.

2010-08-01T12:41:00.001+08:00

back from CAMP!
i really LOVE my every single PROGGER like HELL!
they made things happen for me and rocked this camp!!
CLUB DOMO FTW! If only everyday is spent with u guys!

to Cziah Jyeah, Stanley and Hadi
Thanks for standing by each other for this whole month. We all know our thinkings and styles always clash, but we survived and improved a lot through this period. I seen different sides of u all and saw how each of us grow up in this camp. Hope u all really gain something out of this event and learn from our mistakes & bring AY10/11 to greater heights!!!

to Shihui, Sylvia and Zhao
I LOVE u all coz u all really came back. 09/10 LOVE WILL NEVER FADE!!
Thanks for joining PROG, be it forced or psychoed or voluntary, knowing how i work, my strengths and weaknesses, still TAHAN-ed me through the month! i love U!!!

to Adam, Xiaobai, Presley
I LOVE u all coz u all are willing to give all out for prog/biz. You all are so good and managed to throw away your image for this camp, made things damn funny and high!! The best part is you all dun even complain about anything!! LOVE u all for everything!!

to Huiqi, Huiya, Shah, Kaiwen, Mich, Cindy
Wed clique is really growing strong. U all proved to me that absence will not make the bond fade but absence makes the heart grow fonder! You all stood by me throughout the whole month and never left me out. I LOVE u all!!!! for those going army, i hope you all enjoyed this camp and will think bout how fun camps can be in your camps!=)

to Lingyu, Maybelle and Sister
XIE XIE NI MEN HEN DUO HEN DUO!Everyone thought it would be awkward to ask you all to help out for this camp coz you all are seniors of the seniors. BUT I decided to give it a try and asked u all, who noes, u all AGREED! This camp proved to me that the love for biz can really create miracles and last forever.. Thanks for willing to come back and u all really guided me A LOT and saved me from many downs and troughs. Learning from u all is the best. ILYA!

im a freaking loser.
im trying hard now to pretend nth happened but its not working
bastards guys can nv change
shall just give up and stop torturing myself
if we really deserve each other, all these rubbish wun appear and affect me.
it seems like im the stupid one who actually believed you
shouldnt even trust a liar

2010-07-29T03:28:00.002+08:00

helping to free you in the hard way.
or am i transferring some pain from you to me?

2010-07-26T03:07:00.005+08:00

staring at my to-do-list simply piss me off.
it seems like it is MY job instead of OURS.
idk if they will treat my kindness as weakness!
ARGH.

honestly speaking,
ppl come to me and pour their troubles.
but who can i go to when i have mine?
sometimes we just dun get wat we really want in life. but in the 1st place did we even put in our best to fight for it? giving up easily and taking things for granted hur?

2010-07-23T01:34:00.002+08:00

i think the usual me is coming back (slow and steadily)
im a happy girl today.
and i will be tmr.
BARRAGE HERE I COME!

mummy, imy.

bittersweet

2010-07-22T00:50:00.003+08:00

my daddy and mummy travels.
but i nv seen them travel TOGETHER b4
wierd fate but they are destined to be tgt.
this is love, i believe?

i cant wait to travel as a FAMILY.
all 5 of us.

2010-07-21T02:56:00.003+08:00

where do i go from here?

for all my beloved friends/readers,
thanks for following me through these period
many of you might have worried or thought why am i so "emo" recently.
in fact, idk why.

i have been dishonest to everyone and myself.
i noe u all noe it too.
so, im sorry.

thanks for reading and i wanna let u all know that i felt ur support
and i am finding back myself.
the happy me.
i promise it wun be long.
=)

2010-07-18T23:29:00.002+08:00

im coming back!(i mean it)

look out for my genuine smile

the song lyrics says it all

2010-07-17T20:49:00.002+08:00

第一次你陪我坐著
我的手心是空空的
我知道那些簡訊聲你努力藏著害怕我難過

不追問到底為什麼是我最後的溫柔
想笑著附和說分開是好的
但我們卻怎麼一起哭了

我捨不得可是時間回不去了
愛你很值得只是該停了
沒有我你要好好的

我捨不得最後一次抱緊你了
我們錯過的錯了就錯了
不用擔心我我不愛你了

2010-07-16T02:57:00.003+08:00

Im Sorry.
I failed to protect our relationship or you.
I failed to believe.
I was selfish.
In fact, im the one who ruined it.
Now, i know why people will do it this way.
Maybe privacy and trust is wat we both need right now.
this is my chance for u to not let me down
please cherish it

2010-07-15T02:38:00.002+08:00

FIRST TIME PLAYING L4D. super retarded.
but i think im damn noob. got slight motion sickness.
taking a rest now.

hey loves, thanks for the nice talk today.
it really meant a lot to me and really really reminded me that u all cared so SO much for me.
i will try my best to listen to ur advices.
but if anything else happens,
please dun hate me or wat.
maybe i need to learn it the hard way.
dun ignore me and throw me behind k!
i love u all deep deep like the ocean.
maybe coz im stubborn,
i will wanna try it.
like wat i always say..
u'll nv noe wat will happen until the very last minute.
that is why i do not dare to guarantee my words and all.
NO MATTER WAT,
i hope everyone will be happy
in the end

2010-07-14T02:25:00.003+08:00

dark chocolates are bittersweet and strange.
they just explains my life right now.

did i mention?
i had this sweet dream 2 days ago.
it was a short 15 mins "POWER" nap.
i melted into his hug. such comfortable chest that i can depend on.=)

but it wun happen in reality.

1 fact bout myself
I LOVE CACTUS
they look tough and dull on the outside but they are not
filled with spikes, pushing everyone away
but they survive through all kinds of harsh conditions.
sometimes, they will have bright flowers blooming out of it,
i wanna be a cactus
so strong and independent

2010-07-11T23:44:00.003+08:00

just saw a wall post:
"sang k with my bf, <3 singing duets. going watch world cup l8r."
it just struck me - so sweet..
then i thought back, being able to sing well was one of my criteria in the past.
hilarious.

had a good day out with Mel and RY
it was nothing but memories and updates.
how i wish everyday was like that.
i miss those good old times.

2010-07-11T05:25:00.001+08:00

let me go and i will.

2010-07-10T04:07:00.002+08:00

Im gonna sleep forever.
goodnight world

2010-07-08T23:24:00.001+08:00

Wanna faint and just not open my eyes..
unless im staring at that piece of beautiful sky.
above me,
so high.

2010-07-07T03:01:00.000+08:00

today was mad.
i lose control of myself and melted.
thanks to all those beloved friends
i managed to grab hold
and hanged on
<3
i realised i will lose my appetite when these happens but i will 暴饮暴食
=(

DEREK SIM!!
this is just to annoy you!

2010-07-04T03:51:00.003+08:00

i realised i dream a lot.
in my sleep and in reality

2010-07-03T02:30:00.001+08:00

hate myself for being WEAK!
come on! 争气一点吧！

2010-07-01T03:14:00.004+08:00

sometimes
u tend to lose yourself overtime unknowingly
when u realised, u would have forgotten who u WERE.
the smile that u used to have, disappeared
ur mind would get lost
you are not who u are anymore.
WHO AM I?
imy shihua.

2010-06-29T00:15:00.000+08:00

im in the room, its a typical tuesday night
im listening to the kind of music she doesnt like
and i hope she'll nv noe your story like i do...

2010-06-28T00:07:00.004+08:00

last night was a BOMB.
1st time i ever puked from drinking and i believe im gone for a moment.=)
but luckily im not alone.
(absinthe, bacardi 151, chartreuse, martelle and champagne)
didnt manage to go to vodka, damn.

2010-06-26T19:26:00.004+08:00

If only everyday was like this, a fairytale.

_______________________________________________

2010-06-26T03:15:00.002+08:00

I had a series of nightmare last night.
it made my rest even more tired.=(
today was good though.
dun get blinded by someone's tough cover.

2010-06-25T03:11:00.002+08:00

overworked? i asked for it..sad life~
will there be a cube of sugar or creamer to sweeten this bitter phase in my life?
oh wells..
吃的苦衷苦，方为人上人

2010-06-23T23:59:00.004+08:00

如果你明知会受伤，还会不顾一切吗？
不会为了保护自己，自私一点？
不怕被抹黑的天空，雨后会有彩虹。
不怕流出泪的眼睛，哭过会有笑容。
我什么都不怕除了爱，因为我没那么勇敢。
这一切的一切，值得吗？

2010-06-21T05:03:00.002+08:00

BREAKtime
giving myself some time ALONE

2010-06-20T01:01:00.002+08:00

Happiness and love is so tough yet fragile.
Try looking at it at another angle and you'll find rainbow coming out of it.

a motto that i forgotten but believed in:
祝人为快乐之本

2010-06-19T18:52:00.000+08:00

2010-06-18T04:27:00.002+08:00

i think i'll end up in tears again...
懒惰的代价
=(

2010-06-14T23:33:00.002+08:00

EVERYONE'S NOT HAPPY!
stop hiding happiness angel. everyone needs you.

2010-06-13T23:51:00.000+08:00

when u quarrel with lovers, u all seperate and crack the relationship.
u need a long time to heal

when u quarrel with friends, they forgive and forget.
just say sorry and its over.

when u quarrel with family, it just recover after a split second.
nth has to be done

18g of love is a nice film, but i cant find it to finish watching..=(

2010-06-12T03:23:00.002+08:00

give me a while more. i am getting out of it le.=D
a glimpse of hope is all i need.

damn funny to flash back to the fun times we had tgt.
seeing how silly and innocently funny we were.
missed those times!=D

2010-06-11T04:34:00.001+08:00

2010-06-10T21:54:00.004+08:00

give me a break please!

idk why u will say out wat i feel, what i want all the time without me telling u. its just so wierd.and worse thing is on the other hand im trying so hard trying to explain to the rest the same things but it just dun seem to get through.

and for the rest, everutime when i almost fell for the trap and believe in wat im being thrown into, something will happen and wake me up. so sorru, something or someone is watching over me and protecting me. to the point that i can never get hurt by u. so its either u change or lose me.

and and i really hate it when i will naturally (no matter how hard u try to hide) find out things about u that will just contradict wat u are saying totally. It just sucks to be nowhere. i believe one day if i just disappear.no one except my family will notice, unless u need to make use of me. thanks.

wth. life is such a chore.

2010-06-02T00:07:00.003+08:00

我们的爱跟着你写的剧本，可是出现了越来越多的角色。
我的心会像在你手里的沙，但没好好握紧，一点一滴的从缝隙流失。
只是希望当你发现我已不在你身边时，
不要难过，不要后悔，只要记得我的好，我就满足了。。

因为暧昧让人受尽委屈，
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气

每次想对你好，你都会先弄我不开心。
使我把你从身边推开，
不然就是把自己从你身边默默的离去。
你会在意我的存在吗？

2010-05-28T01:46:00.005+08:00

is it me or is it true, i realised

everybody around me seems so happy=D

people on the streets suddenly seem so blissful <3

maybe im just trying to bluff myself?

trying hard to self convince that happiness is simple and that the world is not ugly.

I guess im just looking at life at the brighter side.

but dear friends out there,

if i can be happy and contented just by being optimistic, why not?

u all give it a try. at least like this life would be more beautiful and being a happy person is really very nice.

the feel is just awesome and good! :D

if there's 1 thing in ur life that makes u upset =(

please turn ur head around and look at ur friends behind u and the beautiful nature, the clear sky, bright stars, gentle sea breeze, clear blue sky and all.. isnt it simply pretty?

if something brought u down today,

something good will happen tmr and bring ur smiles back.

believe in the world, be happy

jiayous!!!

and seriously, im in love with macarons!

they are like so beautiful for its simplicity.

OMG...

idk

2010-05-22T02:51:00.000+08:00

2010-05-15T23:39:00.004+08:00

so much for being a "friend".

so much for being there for u.

so much for standing up in front of others and saying "NO" and supporting u when no one else did.

so much for going against the others just to ensure that they will not hurt u

so much to think that, simple happiness can be attained so easily.

so much for thinking that our friendship is truthful and can last.

so much to be so confident that i actually understood u.

so much for trying to save this friendship for the last time and in the end, ending it.

so much for everything.

at least, crying told me that this friendship TO ME did existed and i cherished it and treated it truly with my heart.

STUPID ME.

2010-05-10T03:36:00.003+08:00

为什么大多数的感情路，都是女生在受伤，傻傻的被骗，被玩弄感情，被狠狠的耍，

而那些女人，明知道会如此，还会奋不顾身的把自己投井串套，还愿意相信真爱存在？

男生。。都是一样
女生？一个字。
笨

2010-05-03T00:47:00.000+08:00

不要在我寂寞的时候说爱我
除非你真的能给我快乐
那过去的伤总在随时提醒我
别再被那爱情折磨

不要在我哭泣的时候说爱我
除非你真的不让我难过
我不想听太多那虚假的承诺
让我为爱再次后悔
犯下的错

NIAM NIAM NIAM

2010-04-25T00:08:00.006+08:00

HELLO fellow readers.

im so bored. Poly year 3 life is SOOOO boring.

idk why but im really bored.

its not i got nth to do. but IM JUST BORED! gosh..

SOMEBODY SAVE ME!

ONE month left, and im no longer a maincomm.

IM soo sooo soooooo gonna miss every bit and pieces of it.=(

guess wat i heard from CJ today.

"why do maincomms like to niam so much?"
"coz u turn the main around u get niam"

HAHAHA! okay, fine, im really dying of boredom.

so bored that i start to think of a lot of things.

like.. should i change my hairstyle?

short hair, fringe, bangs, perm, etc..

and random things like.. what kind of gf will i be in future?

blah blah blah...

ohoh.. u noe wat? I REALLY MISS all the K sessions and the microphone.

I'm like breaking my record for not going to sing leh!

will i lose all my singing powers after such a long break?

who will actually miss my voice besides myself. sounds bhb but i really think my singing improved a lot since i started singing.

SINGING is smth that is PRACTICE makes perfect one.
ok.. maybe not perfect. BUT will really improve and works!

oh oh oh!!! and and i actually SLEPT for like the whole show of shutter island. i heard its NICE but i cant help but sleep! GOODNESS!

and I WATCHED HOW TO TRAIN YOUR DRAGON (3D) like finally!!!!
WOOHOO!!

im SOOOOOOO happy!!!!!

NIGHT FURY IS DAMN BLOODY cute and LOVE!=D=D=D=D

shall end here b4 i start to type retarded things...

2010-04-22T05:17:00.002+08:00

im letting NATURE takes it's course

顺其自然 is the best.

2010-04-02T04:03:00.004+08:00

I LOVE

-the supper in day 1 (Prata) and the love from Chips
- the effort from everyone trying to make things work
- smiles on people's faces
-scrubbing floor together
-being clean during dirty games
-riding scooter ard school and bathing with Shihui
- Dancing with Kaiwen and Grace Phua
-Bumping into mich, huiqi and huiya during camp
- smiling from the bottom of my heart to myself randomly
-wearing different slippers
-reading sweet sms from friends who care, love and kept me going
-talking honestly to people, no need to fake my own feelings and thoughts
-wearing super CHIO camp shirts
-Mango tea "surprise" from loves and Honey lemon drink from Lingyu
-SUPER thoughtful and understanding friends that i got. (u noe who u are<3)>
-talking to curly like how we use to -tiny details throughout that made me laughed
-the exceptionally objective me in camp (work and play is seperated with the clear line)
-sense of satisfaction and usefulness
-talking to cleaner in the toilet when brushing teeth in the morning alone
-bitching and complaining together
-when others think the same way as me without me saying anything
- having a good feeling that tmr will be a better day
-going to visit my grandma and aunt and finally crying again
-argueing with curly as to which part of the video is funnier
-seeing shihui replaying the video countlessly and laughing alone
-annoying alvin with MHK
-smiling and winking with keith
-seeing hadi every night
-knowing more people and more about people through this camp
- microwaving my lunch at cheers
-making people laugh
-doing things together as a committee. (bathing sleeping and all)
-having awesome and wonderful SLs this year
-not needing to worry for my FAs coz they were great
-eating macs at CPF
-having so much support from the alumni, esp. my sister
-having the trust and respect from the comm and SLs
-many more things. i cannot rmb all

BUT overall,
Shihua's a happy girl for the past 3 days!=D
thanks

2010-03-28T08:04:00.000+08:00

im so tired that i can sleep while walking.
=(

Learn

2010-03-26T06:13:00.003+08:00

how long will this simple happiness last?

when can i break free and earn the real freedom that i deserve?

are those tears really worth dropping?

Black and white world

2010-03-22T05:08:00.003+08:00

I came onto this earth alone.

Lived my life alone with my own choices.

which lead me to who i am today.

Thus, I can only continue walking down the path i chose, alone.

gone for chalet. away from everything, i hope.

2010-03-21T04:11:00.003+08:00

today was a scary day.

it was supposed to be a day where everything clashes.

end up, ALL plans (almost all) was cancelled.

so i ended up walking aimlessly from 6 till 10pm.

just walk. walk. and walk..

its so scary when u just go on walking and have no destination.

my day just tick tock tick tock disappeared.

oh gosh.

besides that, coz there was nth in my tiny brain.

all sylvia and me think was those bimbo things.

such as should we call any friend who noes how to catch toy to head down to arcade and catch for us.

its so annoying when even girls there manage to catch for themselves.

even the tiniest one is DAMN cute and hard to attain.

so ROARing.

and all we can do is stare..

the worse thing is.

there is no MAN FU LAN in my life yet,

MAN FU LAN! please hurry appear.

how long you want me to wait??

2010-03-19T02:54:00.003+08:00

An ending leads to a new beginning.
just like how a new beginning will leads to an ending.

See the lights
See the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
And say hello, little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go, and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

2010-03-15T16:24:00.002+08:00

I shouldn't have done that
I should have ignored it
like something i couldn't see
I shouldn't have looked at you at all

I should have run away
I should have acted like i didn't hear it
like something I couldn't hear.
I shouldn't have listened to my heart

You showed me love without words
You gave me your love without words
You made me hold my breath, waiting for you, but u ran away like this
Without a word, love leaves me
Without a word, love tossed me away
what should I say next?
my closed lips were surprised on their own
coming without any words

Why does it hurts so much?
Why does it hurts continuously ?
Except for the fact that i can't see you anymore
And that you are not here anymore
Otherwise, it's the same as before.

Without a word, tears fall
Without a word, my heart breaks.

Without a word, i waited for love
Without a word, love hurts me
I zoned out. I become a fool because I cry looking at the sky
Without a word, goodbye finds me
Without a word, the end comes to me
I think my heart was surprised to send you away without any preparations
It came without a word.

Without a word, it comes and leaves
Like the fever before
Maybe all I need to do is endure the hurt for a while
Because in the end, only scars are left.

White Or Black?

2010-03-14T19:54:00.003+08:00

HAPPY WHITE VALENTINES DAY EVERYONE!
its an "answer day" to Valentine's Day on the grounds that men should pay back the women who gave them chocolate and other gifts on Valentine's Day.
So it is traditionally for guys to reply the girl's gift.=)
goodluck to all girls in the world!
May happiness find all girls today.

As for me,
Im waiting for Black Day (April 14).
It is a South Korean informal tradition for single people to get together and eat jajangmian (noodles with black bean sauce), sometimes a white sauce is mixed for those who did not celebrate White Day.
Its used to celebrate their singledom.

加油施桦

2010-03-13T23:31:00.004+08:00

我真的累了。

虽然忍无可忍，还是得死撑下去！

我绝对绝对不能轻言放弃！

否则对不起自己，

对不起那些和我一路走来的战友们！

反而让那些坏人得扯！

绝对不可以！！！

寻找着当初的热诚，单纯和简单快乐

2010-03-10T21:04:00.002+08:00

你说我让你看不清楚
你说你害怕在爱中迷途
舍不得你哭如果是我让你觉得无助
让我告诉你我对这一切有多在乎

如何证明我深情的吻
才能呵护你脆弱的灵魂
我愿用生命阻挡任何能伤害你的人
就算被冷落就算犯错
我都不走

相信我无悔无求
我愿为你放弃所有
男人不该让女人流泪
至少我尽力而为

相信我别再闪躲
我愿陪你直到最后
男人不该让女人流泪
至少我尽力而为
相信我

All lies in reality.

I dunno what to say.
I cannot express this feeling,
theres something Screaming inside
but I cant hear the words.

Ambiguity makes people suffer
Can’t find any evidence of mutual love.
When should move forward? When should they give up?
Can’t even find the courage to embrace.

Ambiguity causes people to be greedy until it has lost its meaning.
There’s no choice between you and me. There's no happy ending.
Let the beauty of regret stop here.

don't tell me you're sorry 'cause you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught

But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertainin'
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow

Oneirology

2010-03-03T18:00:00.004+08:00

Stages of Sleep.

(Stage 1)
This first stage is very light sleep. If you are not disturbed during this stage you will quickly move on to the 2nd stage.

(Stage 2)
You start thinking of images, even though there are no visions you really see with your eyes. If you remain undisturbed you will drift off into stage 3.

(Stage 3)
You sleep much more deeply now. Your muscles are now more relaxed, and your heart rate has slowed down. Your blood pressure is also falling. Your breathing's steady and even. It's hard to wake you now. Now you will go into stage 4.

(Stage 4)
This is the stage when you are dreaming. This is the deepest sleep of all the stages. It's almost impossible to wake you now. If there's a sudden loud noise, or if you are shaken you will wake up. Your blood pressure, heart rate, and brain speeds up.

Then you get REM. This is Rapid Eye Movement. If you are awakened at this time, you will remember most of your dream. REM will slow down as you wake up. Adults usually have around 3 to 5 periods of REM. REM will take about 90% of the time. There is a part of your brain called pons, and they control REM. Scientists still don't know why REM happens. You can't always control your dreams. Did you know that you're everyone in your dream, but you don't know it? Your dreams are related to some events that happened during the day.There are many theories about why dreams happen. It's not only your eyes that move fast, but your brain works faster too! Not everyone recalls their dreams.

I've been having weird dreams nowadays. .

No matter how many times I look at you, I can't see you, oh baby

Because of the tears in my eyes, all because of you

My crying face that is reflecting above the spread letters, oh baby

I promised myself I wouldn't cry again, but I'm crying again

What do I do, I don't know what to do, what to do

This is me, I don't know why I'm going crazy like this

All because of you, really because of you

I can't do anything, I

Love you as much as the stars, stars, stars, stars

I came for you to find you, you're that far shining star

Stars, stars, stars, no matter what I say

I really can't express myself

I'm frustrated now, what should I do now

No matter how many times I count, I can't see the end, oh baby

Because of all the memories that are in my heart, I think of you again

I couldn't say everything I wanted to so I say them to myself, oh baby

I want you back, I want to go back to your side

I'm pleading to you, please, I'm pleading to you

To the sky, my prayer goes to the sky

Cheer me up, cheer me up

Please, where are you now

Stars, stars, stars, stars, talk to me

Is it over? Is that it? Answer me, don't just laugh

Stars, stars, stars, stars, I'm pleading to you

Just for once, my love

Let me fly to your side

2010-02-24T08:50:00.002+08:00

THAT PARTICULAR SEAT and SERVIETTES are KARMA-ed.

its so freaking scary!

studying this time is not stressful AT ALL.

idk why but im not stressed at all.

i am ENJOYING studying period TTM. (honestly)

i think i LOVE to study with them thats why. oh wells.

BUT

this time im very injury-prone. idk why.

keep injuring myself. small cuts here and there.=(
i dun like.

dun wish this studying period to be over.

2010-02-22T19:39:00.003+08:00

just when i almost fell to the bottom,

i saw many hands pulling me back.

supporting me without fail.

and

the next moment, i find myself back on land,

safe and sound.

happiness is just so simple.

i cant find any other words, really.

thanks from deep inside my heart.

i forgot to thank the stars.

2010-02-21T21:22:00.005+08:00

can someone tell me what to do?

i just have 0 motivation now.

i noe i have to care bout the rest.

but the feeling is just too new and overwhelming.

i just cant think properly now.

feel so embarrassed by myself.

why cant i learn from this failure and take it as the start of a success?

I am so useless..

it feels as though sem 4.2 seems so near.

Sorry dear friends who worry for me.
i will try to get over it asap and get back on track.
Thanks for all the effort and care u all have given me.
they gave me the strength to go on. ILY guys.
it also released my guilt.
i was very worried that i will drag them down with me.
luckily it didnt. or not i will be feeling even worse now.
idk wat to say but thanks.

Stars,

please guide this fool out of despair.

bring me to your side and let me see the view from up there.

is it as beautiful as how I see u from down here?

CNY-VDAY SPECIAL

2010-02-15T05:25:00.003+08:00

interesting night!

one sentence to summarise everything.

its impt to go to the right place with the right people.

thanks for the care loves

u guys rock.

i said i wouldnt but i did. opps. but it was more of drinking than dancing. so its not counted right?

2010-02-12T03:55:00.002+08:00

FOUR years ago,

i wished for a green rose.

that same year,

i recieved my 1st rose from a guy friend.

wierd but i just rmb.

thanks

true or not?

2010-02-07T00:06:00.003+08:00

COME ON!

i grow up le!

i am actually ALLOWING ppl to PIGGYBACK me!

AND...

i actually LIE on guy's shoulder when sleeping in buses. BUT this is seriously i dun wan de. i too tired until like that. anyone tell me, how did i end up on ur shoulders?

THIS IS DAMN SINFUL.
thinking back when i 1st entered poly, i would have killed myself.

but nightcycling really SHOWs all the true colours of people.

i am VERY GLAD. be it real or fake, there ARE gentlemen in ketsu.

HAPPY HAPPY.

after last night, although i am dying of tiredness now,

i am very relieved and so happy that i get to know more about my friends.

I AM A HAPPY GIRL NOW.=D

Did i mention b4? I'm an Imperfect Perfectionist

2010-02-03T06:35:00.006+08:00

everyone is given the freedom to choose in life.
I choose to look at the bright side of everything. I believe that life is too short for my to mourn over the ugly side. Why not cherish wat i have now and enjoy life to the fullest with the pleasant wonders given to you.

OH! my god.

my blog seems dead!
shall update a little.

This sem is madness.
many sleepless nights, stayovers, moodswings, etc.
b4 i forgets, I wanna tell all my family and friends out there that
I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH!
THANKS FOR ENTERING MY LIFE!
EVERYONE OF YOU CONTRIBUTED TO THE EXCITING CHAPTERS and
I CANNOT IMAGINE HOW I WOULD BE LIKE NOW WITHOUT YOU!

OH! wells...

i guess this is part of my growing up.
i was just wondering..
what kind of life was living for the past 18 years.

Since young, i believe i am a spoilt kid.
I really really appreciate my parents for bringing me up so well.
they seriously gave me a wonderful and awesome childhood
that i cannot complain.
its the best part of my life. thats all i can say.

Then, the bringing me up stage was really interesting as well.
the great combination of freedom and control.
I thought it was really well-balanced.
Cannot imagine how they did it but the results were really good. HAHAHA!
(i sounded like i am praising myself!but its the truth that cannot be denied)

OH! mans~

Now, it is the "throwing us off the nest on the cliff" stage.
Idk if u all heard of how eagles actually treat their kids.

the parents feed their baby eagles everyday with their mouth when they are young.
they provide safety and shelter to them day and night.
until their kids grow up till a stage, where the parents will just kick the baby eagles off the nest.
the kids will then be forced to learn how to fly on their own, or just fall to death.

OH! kay =D

I've been through a fulfilling youth years i guess.
its like..
seen your closest relatives leave u forever, felt the pain, learning how to accept reality.
learnt that heaven is fair.
when u lose smth, u will gain smth in other forms or so.
time and stress management,
learn how to look at things in different views.
a piece of rock can also become a diamond with proper upbringing.

I believe in many things. karma, horoscope and proportionatism.
There are still many many things in life waiting for me to venture.
Many many 1st times for me to try out.
Many many whys to all the mysteries for me to ask.

But life is just those short few years,
how do i compress all into them?

when u are in your comfort zone, step out of it. this is how you grow up- Coach
Do unto others what u want others do unto you. (my late Mrs Yeoh always remind us)
Live life to the fullest everyday is all i can say.
we nv noe what will happen the next minute.
and do treasure wat we have now b4 we lose it.

There are many things for you to break. but be careful. not heart, not promises, not rules,
but LIMIT. Challenge myself to greater heights is my new year resolution. - Shihua

2010-01-10T00:55:00.001+08:00

just when i thought its finally time to breathe,

i got thrown back into the ocean to drown.

its so tiring.

2009-12-26T23:19:00.002+08:00

WHOOSH PARANG!

i am suffocating!!

cannot breathe people!

and its all my own fault.

procrastinate and too playful.

now all the deadlines and things are drowning me.

projects, assignments, tutorials, fieldtrips, bsc projects, diff friend groups, tests with high weightages, ALL AT ONE GO!

i noe avoiding is not gonna work. it will just cramp all these till the very last minute and worsen the situation.

SO. i am gonna eat a lot of vitamins and keep myself STRONG for now.

so that i can fight this battle without falling sick.

KONTINUED.

2009-12-12T01:54:00.004+08:00

THURSDAY

slept from 9am-1pm.

bathed and went to TP to meet MICH and SIS and friends 1st

then JOYCE's 21st BDAY chalet @ NSRCC.

my slipper broke and my injured toe got stepped on again! OMG.

KEEP playing ard with SYLVIA, CHELSIE, MAYBELLE, SUNNY, LYNETTE and MANY MANY MORE! DAMN FUNNY!

attempted twice to not fall asleep but buay tahan!

the bed was damn comfortable with the super soft pillow and warm blanket!

FRIDAY

woke up and had big breakfast at 8!! HAHAHA! really cannot crawl up. feeling unwell and TIRED. i think its fatigue. the REAL fatigue.

**big ben was the joke of the morning!

then i went home, changed and left to SENTOSA PALAWAN BEACH to play with DINA, SANTY and JUNTING!

burning tan, tired and aching body,

went back to TAS for FEM LECTURE! goodness.

after that the 4 of us plus HUIMIN and TIMOTHY went to FORTSILOSO for field study!

quite boring but fun when u are with the right grp of ppl! HAHAHA

then went over to meet SOPHIA, XIAO YUN, RYAN, YEONG YIH and friend (SHI JIE) @ bedok to sing k!

my THROAT IS REALLY GONE. omgness. even b4 otc CUI ALR. saded

then THANKS yeong yih for driving me home.

SATURDAY (today)

went work @ kaplan open house and job fair (somerset) from 9am-5+pm

thanks YUEN!

and guess wat??

I made new friend again!

Her name is CINDY! HAHA. and she's like engaged and only 24 yrs old. so sweet.

then we went bedok eat dinner. sat with a family of 3. quite joker.

and saw BEN CHOW! hahah! so QIAO.

after that met SOPHIA and her friend (ZI JIE) to sing.

u all must be thinking "AGAIN!?!?!"

yes. again.

this time is very refreshing for me, coz finally i know someone who can sing many songs that all my other friends dunno how to sing! HAPPY HAPPY.

i think im moving house soon. my house is like a store now.

damn messy and all the cupboards are gone

I WANNA UPLOAD ALL THE VIDEOS and I CANT WAIT FOR OTHER VIDEOS OF ME TO BE TAGGED!

AND FINALLY I CAN SLEEP NOW!

the next 2 weeks will be AS BAD OR WORSE. WISH ME LUCK.

THANKS

KRAZY WEEK

2009-12-10T06:47:00.002+08:00

photos and videos are uploaded or uploading in FACEBOOK.

SUNDAY (right after standchart)

Met SOPHIA, xiao yun and cassandra @ TM macs to study.

saw arthur and friends there as well.

but coz too noisy, so went to OPP SCHOOL macs instead.

studied till 6am. went to prime supermart, and heard this super funny version of xmas songs!

Next time ask me i sing for u!

MONDAY

slept till 3pm.

Met HUIQI and MARCUS and friend(zhuang jie) @ Airport to study.

saw many CMM friends there! HAHA

study session became bitch session! damn hilarious!

then wanted to go home @ 10pm alr.

but coz not productive, i haven finish reading thru,

decided to go AMK to study instead.

Met HUIYA, TINGFONG and friend (jerald)

saw BANGS (vincent) there AGAIN!!!

study till very xing ku (uncomfortable).

then went home in the morning.

TUESDAY (test day)

woke up at 11am, go school for paper.

saw many ppl in the journey. unlike sentosa, always go alone )= nv bang into anyone b4

took my paper (CANNOT FINISH!) ahahhaha!!

then went TEOHENG sing k!

this is like one of the funniest k sessions i had,

but this time different.

its the combi of those who went made this funny.

i think half the room dunno the other half!!HAHAHA

there was like.. me, cai, emylee, santy, dina, junting, zhaoqiang, timothy, rongbin, singhong, lester and friend (yuen hui)

then saw XIAO XUAN, theresa and class there!

after k, went bedok 85 to eat.

then went ehub to celebrate BOON HOW's Bday.

there was curls, celeste and phoebe.

HAHA!

took a girl's number for BOON! nice and unique bday gift rite!

then went to CELESTE's house in punggol to slack while they "study"

WEDNESDAY

at 3am, they all wanted to go home.

then PHOEBE drove me to Serangoon.

where i met timothy for SUPPER.

wth.

eat until 5+am.

then went home.

SLEPT UNTIL 7PM!

HAHAHAH!!

then went town to meet HIUCHING and SYLVIA!

saw ah tan! HAHA

wah.

by then i already sick le.

the nauseous and ill feeling. dunno how to explain.

reach home ard 11+

then slack and watched my hi my sweetheart until 6am! HAHA

okok.

next few weeks will be as packed as this!

DIES. its damn taxing leh!

this is only the BEGINNING?!?!?!

2009-12-05T22:55:00.002+08:00

I LOVE MY COUNTER GROUP 6!!!

im like missing them alr!

it was fun working with them although i didnt know them that well on day 1.

but i was happy that i made much more friends now!=D

from everywhere somemore!

sad thing is there was NO GROUP PHOTO!!!=*(

and NO MORE WEIRD THINGS happened!

how i wish there was no midsem and projects, then it would be a perfect and wonderful holiday to rest and rejuvenate!

WEIRDILICIOUS

2009-12-02T22:48:00.003+08:00

WHAT THE HELL!

recently im BOMBARDED with SUPER WEIRD THINGS ok!

im going INSANE soon, i swear!

let me name SOME.

-my throat tearing pain unreasonably 1.5 weeks ago and hasnt healed yet

MONDAY
-kenna sous chef and my weird voice exploded
-ran up and down sugarloaf and toptable several times for 10 mins
-the moon has this circle of rainbow around it
-took the 23 last bus home and the bus moves at 10km/hr kind

TUESDAY
-waited 1hr 45mins (current record) ALONE at bugis
-bought this specs which is really weird
-took bus80 and this auntie with a man voice started scolding into the air
-this ah beng somehow bua my leg when he lost balance and fell in the bus
-the bus handles are like being chewed on by some wild dogs

TODAY IS THE WORSE
-i bang into the imbiah barricade at the info counter while walking
-saw 2 girls zao geng up the stairs with WHITE panties that looks like diapers
-arroyo wear my weird specs to tutor my class
-i sign at the wrong column for lect attendance
-4 girls openly STARE at me for the entire bus journey home
-saw a guy pee into the drain (public) in front of me with THAT THING
-went swimming all of a sudden
-3 aunties approached to ask for help in directions, instructions, etc within 10mins
-saw a naked snail

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE.
no more weird things tmr!!
im going MAD!

K-razy

2009-11-29T14:43:00.005+08:00

Im back to korean craze recently.

Taiwan's taking a break now.=D

THE WEIRD THING IS

i can spend hours being hardworking learning dance and reading lyrics and singing, watching drama

but

i cannot even sit down and focus on studies for an hour.

is this so called INTEREST?

so annoying, why isnt there any course which is like project where my research are those that i like and can do?= (

why only look at the dull side of life!

2009-11-09T22:25:00.003+08:00

do i look like i am having a good life now?

well, indeed i DO if i look at the BRIGHT side!!

i have an AWESOME family,

caring and supporting FRIENDS,

stable shelter,

Good school and education,

Health and Energy,

im still young and life is fresh and exciting.

Im SO MUCH more fortunate as compared to

6,706,993,152 people!

2009-11-07T21:12:00.004+08:00

my life is becoming more and more dull.

its like.. time flies without any trace.

trying hard to wake up every morning,

rushing to get in the train(s) to TAS,

walking into class hoping with minimum attention when late,

trying real hard not to fall asleep in class,

finding a pinch of interest in the topic,

stuck at what to eat for lunch,

worrying it would rain and get trapped @ TAS,

trying hard again to catch up the pace of study,

missing the times i go home when the sun is up,

hoping life dun change that much and fast everyday,

wishing time could slow down for a while,

travelling back to TP to settle things,

praying that things in club will go smoothly,

finding a bright side of everything in life to make my day better,

reaching home with a worn out health and mind.

falling asleep just by sitting on the couch.

awaken by mummy to drag me into the room instead,

being told by daddy to mind my body,

nagged by sister to clear my mess and stop irritating her,

seeing my brother a min a day @ night when he returns and says "Woo!"

i wanna see my purpose in life.

i feel as though i am wasting my life away.

seems busy but yet, come to think bout it,

WHAT exactly am i messing with to get myself so packed?

i dun find any list of things that is really impt to my life or wat.

many of the things are redundant or rather,

i am finding ppl's problem to trouble myself!WTH.

i realise i am surrounded with immature ppl (including myself)

when can i really grow up and be independent and strong?

needs time i guess.

BUT, time will fly away again b4 i even notice! how?

lets all spend some time to reflect in life. =D