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Monday, April 27, 2009
these pictures are coming out again. but not projects this time.


FOR THE 1st TIME, (worse than O levels)

I AM STRESSED UP AND SCARED OF TMR.

FREAK!!!!

THE FEELING SUCKS OK!

i am SUPER WORRIED for tmr.

VERY AFRAID i do smth wrong, or forget anything

SUPER PISSED with today

and FEELING DAMN SHITTY for not being able to handle all this!


and i am STUCK in choosing ELECTIVES.

ROAR.

why am i PARANOID by all these things,

when other ppl are worrying bout whether they can live till tmr.

WTH.


its really the HORRIBLE feeling

friendless, anti-social, annoyed, wierdo, freaked, pissed, stupid, clumsy, forgetful, useless and outcast feeling.



WILL TMR BE A BETTER DAY?

ronald says it'll be a better day tmr after a sucky day today.

I DUN WAN HISTORY TO REPEAT!

NONONO!!!!!



GO SHIHUA!

FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT!!!

I SHALL NOT GIVE UP UNTIL I FAIL THE SUBJECT!

AS LONG AS I CAN STILL GO FOR CLASS, I SHALL FIGHT AND CHALLENGE THE STUPID STRESS DEVIL!

GO AWAY STUPID IDIOT!


its a very different feeling from year 1 ,

somehow i am not enjoying year 2.

why? or is it just the beginning?

high expectations lead to higher disappointment?

should be so...



am i ready for tmr's BATTLE?

war against myself.

retardedly true.

Saturday, April 25, 2009


I AM TIRED!

but damn satisfied! WOOHOO~~

despite the sourness my arm felt after the injection,

i went for HUMAN WHEELBARROW!!!

BEST is with BEIBI, SOPHIA!!!!!!!

LOVE her DeeeeeeEEeeeEeeeeeeeP!!!!!

HAHAHAHAHHAHA!!



and and and


throughout this whole week, my heart will like scared scared one.

i think is post-ssm trauma.
damn annoying arh.=(
i need to destress alr.



POPCORN is still LOVE one lor.

1 year anniversary soon!!!!!!=D


this was taken last year during HTM orientation(freshie)
this year SL camp(quanzee)
did i change at all??

Thursday, April 23, 2009
i dislike people who are late.

and im late almost everyday this week.

WTH.


and im like falling asleep everywhere. on bus, lectures...

almost slept on a lady's shoulder today.

hilarious.


i lack of confidence in myself. thinking im fat and ugly coz ppl says so.

tsk. I should improve myself then i haf the confidence or i should haf the confidence then i will improve myself?

wateva it is, i am who i am. be it FAT, UGLY or watsoever, only true friends will accept me as who i really am.


I love true friends, those talks and slacking time we spent tgt.

simple happiness.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009
I AM DAMN SAD TODAY!!!!

its like the SUAYEST day in my life in TP!
(and i'm not kidding)

it started off like..

i woke up at 430am and coughed all the way till 5am.
then i slept another 30mins.
afterwhich when i wanted to leave for skol, it POURED suddenly!
OMG. and i waited till 6.45AM!

managed to reach school at 7.30+am.
gotten ready with help from HUIYA, CASSANDRA, THERESA & JIE LING! (THANKS A LOT!!!)

then reached class at 8.00am SHARP.
BUT
my sleeves was rolled up. got scolded and after i unroll them, i'm counted as LATE.=(
(waves bye to 8 marks from SSM)

then i haven taken my jab!=(
doctor says im sick so cannot coz it will worsen my current illness.

then my grooming FAILED also!
lipstick not red, baby hair still out, tie not tight enough.
WORSE THING! my shoes ABANDON me suddenly! OMFG!
it just broke into 2. cant even walk in them!
now i really DUA sad alr.
so i dragged myself (DAMN PATHETIC) ard during lesson.

panicked and asked for help desperately.
after like 4 hrs, its break.

HUIYA and ME ran from TCA to SDC just to get tape for my shoes(temporary support)
THANKS WENYI for helping me REALLY! and also the person who allowed me to cut all the way to the front(coz i was 10 mins LATE alr)
then we ran from SDC to design photocopy huiya's cert.
then ran back to TCA! OMG LA!

i was soaked in perspiration by then alr.
then everyone was alr int he midst of lesson and we budge in LATE. =(
taped my shoe as fast as i can and joined in the class.
SORRY HUIYA, for making u skip lunch with me!

after a while, EMYLEE rushed to school to lend me HER court shoes! DAMN LOVE plz!
(class was disturbed by me coz emylee came during lesson)

then after like 30min to 1 hr, my SISTER came with MAYBELLE's shoes also!(but its too small)
and this time round she asked for me from one of the tutor! OMG. and once again i was disrupting the lesson. can see the pissness in their faces ok. its like the atmosphere is tensed enough and all this came in at the wrong timing?=( they must be thinking " this girl DAMN troublesome! black list, BAD 1st impression!" OMG

BUT both emylee and sis dun haf school but they came for me! THANKS A LOT AH!!!!

after that, lesson was fine alr. (phew~)
but my left hand is damn useless. cant even hold weights. damn WEAK! =(

so i ended the day both mentally and physically DRAINED.


the bit at the bottom is just self-encouragement.(trying to believe in them)

but it was a lesson for me man!
failure is the mother of success!
shall learn from my mistakes and improve from there!
YEAH! i shall try and do it!
GO SHIHUA! GO GO GO!
dun sad anymore!


the end.

Sunday, April 19, 2009

OMG.

i need to train my stamina.

its total cui-ness on day 2 of orientation.

maybe its coz i nv eat+ the hrs in direct sunlight+cheering non-stop made me go all the way DOWN~~~

i was really uncomfortable to the point i tear everytime i started talking. 1st time like this.

BUT i really wanna THANK everyone who helped out in business. maincomms, subcomms, CINDY for guiding me along no matter wat, ADHLs esp CHELSIE and EDRIC,also sue, benchow, curly,hadi, etc.. SLs esp those in HTM for tolerating my harsh tone and irritatingness for 2 days without complaining and accommodating with me, Freshies for not giving up on us and finish week 0 orientation tgt with us, earning us FIFTH time champion.=D thanks for all the care and concern, it really made me not give up and hold on till the end! and SO SORRY for my horrible attitude and tone if i accidentally shot you. and not forgetting, POPCORN. jess thanks for the mentos. i think it really helped.=D huiya also, for helping me hype up although u urself is damn tired alr. soph, for coming down to support, other popcorns also!!!!

AND, i get energised everytime i see holqa GLs and freshies, although still batt weak, but surviving!!!

and the stupid tattoo tan mark is damn ugly arh=(

oh ya.. after viewing huiqi's blog, she say her EC pangseh her.
I TOTALLY AGREE OK!
i also kenna pangsehed like a few times lor.
hmmm... opp school is an example. =(
SADED OK!

ohoh.. but luckily after that u sort of walked me (tgt with sue) from mush to biz entrance.
BUT without others pushing(or forcing) u, u wun even move rite!!!!=(=(=(

so many things undone, unprepared. how? school's starting TMR!!!

shall get my hair black 1st, then get the injection done, then con't with the rest!!!=D

SEM 2.1 HERE I COME!!!!woohoo~~~

Monday, April 13, 2009
starting from TODAY!!!

business business BUSINESS!!!!!

damn sad lor. today tea party i bought the gift! DOUGLAS DUN LIKE and in the end up became smth that every course share! =( dunno how to appreciate. got so much vitamin B6 and C ok!

busy busy busy i guess!!

the unglam me is coming out again!!

week ZERO orientation!!

HERE I COME!


challenging stamina and limit~

Sunday, April 12, 2009
credits: zhihao





TODAY WAS ANOTHER OVERALL FUN DAY!!!!
tats why i love camps so much. coz of the love and bond u feel after that.

let me name the things i rmb for today!

1st, weilun fetch me to school. it was quite an adventurous trip. coz we haf to look out and be careful all the time.

then when reach, so happy to see so many ppl!!!! FRESHIES AND GLS!=D
its like LOVE.

then went to sentosa, although i cant enter water, it was still an enjoyable day.
all the dragonflies!!!!!! OMG. and also dancing like retards with joyce, playing along with sexaye denise! HAHAHA. camwhoring interesting poses(above) with YZ and zhihao the cameraman!
although it started pouring after a while, we had fun in the rain!! haha
*** taking the tram there and back in a loop***
waiting for toilet at TAS, when LI PING IS DAMN LOVE! **secret**
and also when raynor slipped coz its wet and slippery!!

after that went over to vivo. bought our food and changed slipper with EDMUND!!!(my ai ai)
THEN HOR i DUA SAD LOR!
reason #1: sp and tp ppl almost started a fight!=( where is the love? this is damn anti-climax

reason #2: and also due to this we all haf to clear the place asap when its only like 9pm!?

reason #3: we played a fake couple game where freshies choose a gl to partner. NO ONE CHOSE ME WILLINGLY OR INITIATED!!!!!!!!!=(=(=(=(=(


BUTBUTBUT

although i WAS sad, NEL ppl CHEERED me up totally! I LMAO plz!
until the busstop i was still smiling to myself!!!!!

we went over to harbourfront macs to slack. then we started asking eyecandies and things=D
HAHA. damn funny..
yay! i found new eyecandy! edmund freshie =D

then after that we play the ROCK rock game.
play all the way until i got off the train which is like 11+ reaching 12??

some funny insights were:
1. GIRAFFE ( GUraffe) OMGness
2. LIZARD as land animal
3. FISH CHOP as western food
4. WORM as land ANIMAL
many many more.

its just LAUGHS for the whole journey!=D
its damn LOVE!

Saturday, April 11, 2009

ok la..

i am more tired nowadays.

it is all shown in photos and videos..

look so cui and lifeless.

will recharge myself soon and BRIGHTEN UP MYSELF AGAIN asap k!

WOOHOO!!!

now its like the holqa and popcorn love that keep on pushing me to carry on.

YES! i love these people la! they are like so.. CUTE!!!!!!

Thursday, April 09, 2009


FO's finally over.

its been 4+months hard work and effort.

many feelings i cant put into words.

but i just felt damn awesome.

its like HOLQA. it made me grew up a little.

i overcame many things and also learnt a lot a lot.

i also haf so many thanks that i think i cant finish them all in a post.

in summary, they are

holqa FA and HGL, for giving me the chance to learn as subhead and also as a GL,

GLs, for bearing with my nuisance and irritatingness, guiding me along for all 6 days and helping me a lot. and some haf to play along with me! HAHAHAHAH
some are like my ai ai (edmund)LOL, LLC, lun, HOLIX especially for really helping and tolerating me, chrystal, koksheng, thomas, zhihao, others....

FRESHIES, for supporting me in anything(most) i do and also to play along with my retardedness. u all really showed me the freshie LOVE and the feeling that i didnt felt last year. u all made my 1st time GL experience AWESOME to the max. and all the love u all showed us is really actions spoke louder than words!!

POPCORN, for not pangsehing me no matter wat, its been almost a year, in fact 1 year. we've been through thick and thin. and its really really really ______(i cant find any better word to fit in) to haf u all in my life. all the times we had tgt is really DAMN LOVE.

SUBCOMs ,for their liking of HOLQA.

MANY MANY MORE.

shall cont again when i got time=D


HOLIX!!!


Sunday, April 05, 2009
FOW!!!!!


its a bomb i cannot deny!

it even made me cry on the last day.(this is how great it was)
[and i heard comments that i cried damn ugly-ly la, so sorry arh. cant me helped]

I LOVE THE FRESHIES and not forgetting HOLQA GLS!!!

thanks so much for everything.

despite my not-so-good leading, u all helped and guided me along!

THANKS.

i am not good at words, but i hope u all noe how glad i feel to haf u all in HOLQA or HOLIX.

thanks thanks thanks a lot EVERYONE!

and and and , the performance night was AWESOME!!!

the moment when they started dancing and the part where everybody goes twist and shake up the body!! OMG. its DAMN CUTE LA

this sense of satisfaction, i didnt understand last year when i was a freshie, NOW i felt it and ITS DAMN SHIOK! LOVE HOLQA!!!!!


but i was damn sad ytd, coz i came late (really late) to CPF that when i reached, i only say a few freshies left. like joevan, gerald and joan.=( didnt get to bond with them or so..

SO SORRY FRESHIES!! i'll see u all at outings k!!!

and this FOW i didnt mingle ard , only a little bit, to the point that im worse than any GL in HOLIX.=(

i dun even think the freshies noe who i am. well, maybe a handful.

BUT

i was damn touched when ytd some came to get my number , this afternoon gerald smsed me, and also on facebook, all the adding of freshies and wall comments.

this goes to show that there are still freshies who noe me!!!=) DAMN happy arh..

OK. i'll learn from this excellent FOW and do even BETTER in FOC.
ALL THE BEST FOR HOLQA AND HOLIX!!
GOGOGO!~~~